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Sunday, October 15, 2006
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IT IS FINISHED ! hahaha finally the exams are over and the holidays are starting!
last wednesday i celebrated my 16th birthday.
the feeling was so different from the past years', more emotions and sentiments.
i really have to thank all the people who have entered my life in one way or another and have become part of my memories. i would not be the shiwei that i am now if not for anyone of you.
celebrated my birthday with a simple lunch at thompson plaza's swensons with a couple of classmates. really a bunch of great people who will be there to stick it out with you through thick and thin. (although the niao-ings are really cheem to understand) but nevertheless, i still had a memorable birthday.
last night in church, the cg celebrated ru's and my birthday through TREASURE HUNT. wah piang, fort canning park was so dark. but it was a totally new level and i'm so glad that the bday coordinator really took the extra mile to plan this. breakthrough larh. by the end of the year, we'll hit 40! it is possible!
in the past, what birthdays meant to me was just a day that i could be king and just demand anything from anybody, birthdays meant having a birthday cake and of course, many many presents. but this year, the word "birthday" began to take on a whole new meaning.
16 years ago, one of God's countless masterpieces was unleashed onto Earth, according to His plan, and therefore i was born.
in the past, i always grumbled over the slightest things, i grumbled about why i looked like that and would always compare myself with the more handsome classmates in class; i grumbled about why i couldn't study and score as well in exams as the guy who got first in class; i grumbled about why i couldn't be as tall as the tallest guy in class during height&weight measurement; i grumbled about why i couldn't get the prettiest girl in class to catch the latest movie with me. now that i think about it, all i could do is just to giggle and laugh at my foolishness.
the answer is so simple: because I am myself, not the strongest hunk in school, nor am i the smartest geek in class.
God created me just the way He intended me to be. From the texture and colour of my hair to the size of my toenails, it's all created according to His purpose. God prescribed every single detail of my body, He purposely chose my race, my parents, my relatives, and even the talents and abilities that i should have. Isn't our God amazing! Also, God already planned the days of my life in advance, the exact time of my birth and death. God is also a God of details!
There are so many people out there who think that they are accidents, resulting from mistakes made by their parents, whether it is because of unplanned marriages or one night stands. But no, you are not an accidet! Your birth might be a mishap, but your life is not a fluke. Your parents did not expect you, but God certainly did. In fact, He even planned that this was how you should be born! It is not fate, nor chance, nor luck nor coincidence that you're here! God never makes mistakes. He has a resaon for everything he created!
Hahaha. So there is no need for you to follow somebody else or try to be like the coolest girls in class, because by doing so, you're not yourself already. God created us to be unique and special, that's why we're all His masterpieces. The only way to honour him is to live by the purposes that He has set for you, then only will your God-given talents and abilities be developed.
Do not worry about the number of pimples on your face, nor worry about the number of centremetres you have grown, because you are you, God's very own masterpiece, God's child. (:
One more reason why my 16th birthday was one of the greatest ever. I received this card by snail mail on wednesday evening. I looked at the handwriting on the cover and I started to wonder who it might be from, my brain felt like a processing machine, mixing and matching faces of people to that handwriting. I opened the card and i teared. There i saw the last line - "Pst Lia & Pst How". I was totally blown away, how thoughtful and caring Pastors are. Despite all the struggles and mistakes. Thank you.
Now i view birthdays as a gauge to see how much I've grown as a disciple of Christ, how much spiritually mature i have grown, and how much more of myself i have become.
Thank You for everything you've given me.